Goodbye, My Sweet

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It was an ordinary Sunday morning. I got up and went to church to sing in the choir. (I’m an agnostic who likes to sing.) I had some water but needed a cough drop to moisten my throat so I pulled out a sugar-free cough drop sweetened with aspartame. Not bad.  I could forgive that. Then I went over to the coffee social after the service with the rest of the choir. Something I never do. Lo and behold they had my very favorite donuts. From there I slid further by buying some popcorn and chocolate when I had to stop for gas on the way home.

Man, does sugar mess with me. I slid straight down into depression. I feel lethargic and I can’t wait to get into bed. How many times to I have to learn this lesson?

I feel like something is missing. All day long I felt like I’d lost something. I felt as if I were in mourning.  That’s the only way I can put it. Why am I putting myself through this? Really. Is it really worth the aggravation? Does it really matter?

I wanted to get rid of my sweet tooth. I’ve convinced myself that I need to do this. But is it really necessary? Do I really want to deny myself this little pleasure?

I’ve been thirsty all day and no amount of water seemed to quench it. I was looking for something that I couldn’t find in water. Talk about one day at a time. Now I’m convinced that I have some kind of addiction that is fed by sugar and aspartame.

Today’s been the first day in seven weeks that I did not ingest sugar. Hunger pangs plagued me all day. I’ve been cranky and irritable. My mind wandered back to yesterday’s Superbowl cake with mounds of frosting.  I want some so badly, it’s insane.

After all the experimentation with all the commercial/fad diets out there, I know this is the right course of action for me. But I could dive into a vat of pudding.

Affirmation: I am strong and patient. This, too, shall pass.