Goodbye, My Sweet

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As I’ve said before, I’ve been using Stevia and Truvia. Well, I’ve been using a lot of Stevia and Truvia. Is it really worth the expense? I really have to do some kind of cost benefit analysis here.  I haven’t lost any weight. I’m spending more more on groceries. I’m not sure that there’s any great advantage to this experiment of mine.

Of course I could just stop using all sweetners and that is the ultimate goal here. So I guess this is a step towards that goal. So I’ve got to have faith.

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To make up for the diet soda I’ve been drinking tea with stevia. I found a flavored sparkling water that I like but I add a packet of Truvia. Am I defeating the purpose? Should I just go back to drinking diet soda to make me happy? I’m still craving something sweet. I’m still trying to make up for something. Is it a hole in my soul or a hole in my way of eating?

I’m following a gut feeling here. Every instinct in my body tells me that I’m doing the right thing. But is it instinct or is is perfectionism? All my life I tried to be a “good girl”, do everything just right. If I made the slightest mistake I considered my efforts wasted. Mistake =  failure.

If I’m a “good girl” and don’t eat any of the “bad stuff” will I be rewarded? Will I finally deserve to lose weight, to be thin?